for you...

Traffic lights shining in my eyes
Through the pouring rain
We had a terrible fight tonight
And I can't stand the pain
I've been searching for hours and hours
up and down these lonely streets
I feel scared and alone and so incomplete
I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you
I wouldn't be here if I didn't care
I wouldn't waste your time or my time in a love that's going nowhere

It's been building up for quite sometime
Something had to break
But to just end it all like this
Would be the worst mistake
I know I don't wanna live without you
I know exactly what you mean to me
And I believe that inside, we still hold the key
I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you
Freezing cold in the pouring rain
All I wanna do is find you
Let me set you home again

Someday we gonna look back on this
Throw away the cross we had to bear
We'll have a laugh and we'll have a kiss
We'll say all is fair

...zar...

Till My Heartache Ends

i recall
when yous aid that you will never leave me
it told me more
so much more like when the time you whispered
in my ear
there was heaven in my heart
i remember when you said that you'd be here forever

then you left
without even sayin' that you're leavin'
i was hurt
and it really wont be easy to forget
yesterday
and i pray that you would stay
but then you're gone and oh, so far away

iwas afraid this time would come
i wasnt prepared to face this kind of hurting from with you
i have learned to live my life beside you
maybe i'll just dream of you tonight
if not into a dream you'll come and touch me once again
i'll just keep on dreamin'
till my heartache ends

....zar...

We had a sportfest just recently,eventhough it was  rainy day the game must go on....its was a tough game,yellow eagle versus pink panther in the championships,,teamwork,patience,supports are present that time...but the most important happenings is the bonding I'm able to meet my coleague,exchanging smiles and hi's,,,It was stressful,yes! but of all the stress its was the exciting one...

Sports keep us fit,it will lessen the signs of aging,he he he! duh Im not that old,,,picture here and there, dine togerther  while sitting on the floor gym..after that, program starts again...

championship game , heat begin to attack every player were game lead to overtime...tough..really tough...as I can hear the boo's and wooohh of the other team,game ended as the yellow eagle bagged the second place...

Yellow team are happy what they got,shaked hands of  pink panther.The taught the we enjoyed that time, at least a changed of environment even in a short time, to forget  all our different problems outside the court..It happened not with alcohol or drugs or whatever..

Ahhhhh!!! I need a body pain reliever...well all of  the player need it...proud to be yellow eagle... tigerlily

Am I real? Do the words I speak before you make feel
That the love I've got for you will see no ending?
Well if you look into my eyes then you should know
That you have nothing here to doubt nothing to fear
And you can lay your questions down 'cause if you'll hold me
we can fade into the night and you'll know
The world would die and everything may lie
Still you shan't cry 'Cause time may pass
But longer than it'll last I'll be by your side
Take my hand And gently close your eyes so you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight than what I've for you
Well if you feel the same way for me then let go
We can journey to a garden no one knows
Life is short my darling tell me that you love me
So we can fade into the night and you'll know
The world could die and everything may lie
But you won't cry 'cause time may pass
And everything won't last but I'll be by your side
Forever by your side so you won't cry

What's the time?
Seems its already morning
I see the sky, its so beautiful and blue
The TV's on
But the only thing showing is a picture of you

Oh, I get up and make myself some coffee
I try to read a bit but the story's too thin
Then I thank the Lord above
That you're not there to see me
In this shape I'm in

Spending my time
Watching the days go by
Feeling so small
I stare at the wall
Hoping that you think of me too
I'm spending my time

I try to call but I don't know what to tell you
I leave a kiss on your answering machine
Oh, help me please
Is there someone who can make me
Wake up from this dream?
I'm spending my time
Watching the sun go down
I fall asleep to the sound
Of "tears of a clown"
A prayer gone blind

I'm spending my time

My friends keep telling me:
Hey, life will go on
Time will make sure will get over you
This silly game of love you play you win only to lose

I really wanted to write,

and make my own words.

I wanted to try

but I really  dont know how.

I want to make every words

clear and perfect

but why do I feel isn't right?

I started to write,

and enjoy every words of mine..

until it became emotions

that carried me all the way..

I loved the feeling,

I enjoyed the rythm,

I shared, I recieved.

the saddest, the happiest.

but  at the end

it makes me realized,

its not me who is talking....

somebody told me you were leaving, i didn't know

somebody told me you're unhappy but it doesn't show 

somebody told me that you don't want me no more

so you're walking out the door 

nobody told me you'd been dying but didn't want to fight 
nobody told me that you fell out of love from me 
so i'm setting you free
 
let me be the one to break it up 
so you won't have to make excuses 
we don't need to find a setup 
where someone wins and someone loses 
we just have to say our love was true
but has now become a lie
so i'm telling you "i love you" one last time 
and "goodbye"
somebody told me you still love me, i don't know why
nobody told me you only needed time to fly
somebody told me you'll come back 
when our love is real again
 
just turn around and walk away 
you don't have to live like this
but if you love me still then stay 
don't keep me waiting for that final kiss
we can work together through this test
or we can work through it apart 
i just need to get this off my chest
that you will always have my heart
 
let me be the one... 

Somewhere between all our laughs,

long talk, stupid little fights, and all

our joke, I fell inlove....

When you love someone

you can tell..

but when you're inlove with

someone, everyone can tell.

Love is when you shed a tear

and you still love him

its when he loves another girl

you still  smile and say" Im happy for you"

when all you really do is cry...

find arms that will hold you

on you're weakness,

eyes that will see you

at you're ugliest,

and a heart that will love you

at your'e worst..

Then you have found true love..

zarah....always

To love from the center of my heart,

could pull me from my self.

To love from the center of my heart

could make my life a dream.

a dream of questions,

or adream of fulfillment

beyond all conceptions.

To love from the center of my heart

is to be naked before you,

while I am open from my soul.

How can I keep my self

when I love you

from the center of my heart?

I can't! I "must" share

but how can I share a self

I have not found?

 to love you from the center

of my heart.

requires that I find ME

who lives in the center of my heart.

then I can't share a Self

I didn't know I was

Until I dared to lo9ve you

from the center

of my heart.

Zarah...always

never say " I love you",

if you really don't care.

Never talk about feeling's

If they aren't really there

Never hold my hand

If you're gonna break my heart

Never say you're going to....

If you don't plan to start

Never looks into my eyes

If all you do is lie....

Never say Hi

If you really mean goodbye

If you really mean forever

then say you will try

Never say forever

coz forever makes me cry.......